This has been the most interesting weekend in a long time. On friday due to an unfortunate series of events I irreparably damaged my computer given my resources. Right now I'm typing this on my laptop. Grrr... On Saturday I went to Nahein's. We were going to play D&D, but we got really sidetracked. Oh well. That evening I went to Sarah's b-day party. Happy Birthday Sensei! It was awesome. Her friends are so crazy. We watch Donnie Darko, which is the weirdest, but one of the coolest movies I've ever seen. Then we played manhunt. I was teamed with two of her friends who were going out which was a little awkward, but I lived. After that we opened her presents. Since Josh didn't have a present at that point in time, she had to settle for us riverdancing, which was more amusing than any present. I gave her a boring old gift card. On Sunday I went to a Magic tournament. Man, it's been so long. I had to construct a new deck from scratch, but it was still fun. I went 1-1-1 so I must've been ranked right in the middle of the scoring. I can't wait til next time. Afterwards we went to Shady Glen for dinner, which rocked. That night my dad and I argued over various things regarding my iSearch which is due on Wednesday. At one point it looked so hopeless I kicked a hole in the wall. Oops. Now that my laptop is working I'm doing my iSearch with the hope it will be finished by Wednesday.

Until next time, may your wild turkey's no longer permeate your impossible dreams,
Dave

Your True Birth Month Is June

Fussy Abiding Friendly Stubborn Talkative Sensitive Executive Hesitating Easily hurt Active mind Easily bored Daydreamer Loves to joke Tends to delay Temperamental Brand conscious Loves to dress up Having lots of ideas Good debating skills Funny and humorous Thinks far with vision Prone to getting colds Polite and soft-spoken Able to show character Seldom show emotions Knows how to make friends Easily influenced by kindness Takes time to recover when hurt Choosy and always wants the best Those who love me are enemies; Those who hate me are friends

What's" Your True Birth Month?

Love Sonnet XXI
You have more beauty than Helen of Troy
Like her, on this world you will leave your mark
You’ve more integrity than Joan of Arc
Your cunning behind ev’ry ploy
Cleopatra holds no candle to you
You’ve the whimsical love of a fairy
Thou art more pure than the virgin Mary
You stood strong through what tempests blew
Your Mind is on par with Madame Curie
And like her in her time, you have no peer
You are each beauty from all Shakespeare
Without invoking fate’s tragic fury
And it seems to me god finds need to bless
Us mortal men with you, our sweet goddess

Love Sonnet XXII
From the window I see rain, hear thunder
The demons in my life unleash their roar
This savage storm breaks my dreams asunder
All of my hopes dissolve in the down pour
Kept from the tempests by a window pane
If it shattered my life would flood with hate
Each misspent thought of you increases the strain
To dream of you is to tempt a harsh fate
My mind tells me you will never be mine
To see you walk away makes me suffer
I’d hurt if someone else’s hand clasped thine
Each thought is a crack in my clear buffer
All this, but with my heart I truly know
That the clouds will part and the sun will show

the first one follows an alternate rhyme scheme, but it's still technically a sonnet. this next poem is also not a sonnet, but a poem none the less. it's more or less true.

I had a dream where I was walking on the beach
Holding hands with an unclear silhouette
White sands and blue skies as far as the eye could reach
We sat together to watch the sun set
The sky turned pink, and the ocean forever blue
Just she and I looking across the sea
What a marvelous dream it was, it seemed so true
I should have known, such love is not for me
As on the beach I sat with that mystery maid
My entire life seemed consumed by pure joy
How was I to know this heavenly sight would fade
So I, so naïve, fell for fate’s cruel ploy
I shut my eyes, when I looked again she disappeared
One moment she’s there the next she’s gone
The sudden bitter pain through of loss through my mind seared
So through my dream’s night I cried on and on
When I awoke I realized it was just a dream
The loss of what’s not there, a phantom pain
I never knew who she was, things are not what they seem
And after that I never cried again

Your #1 Match: INTP

The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can.Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge.Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat.A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.

Your #2 Match: INTJ

The Scientist You have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems.Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized.You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others.Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you. You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer.

Your #3 Match: ISTP

The Mechanic You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations.A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent.To outsiders yous eem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable.You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people. You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete.

Your #4 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #5 Match: ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

What's" Your Personality Type?

Love Sonnet XVIII
My love, your beauty glimmers like the morn
You are the hope after a long black dark
The gods themselves their love on you adorn
You wake the tired with music like a lark
Your wonder lasts into the afternoon
And the sun may fly high, but you soar higher
Your love and the sun’s heat both make men swoon
But in their hearts you light a dif’rent fire
You never shall sink into that dark night
Your life is sanctified and you’ve been blest
Stars pale in comparison to your great light
You bring with you a blissful peace and rest
With you as my compass I shall not stray
I’ll love you through ev’ry minute of day

Love Sonnet XIX
Your eternal beauty death cannot touch
You are vivacious and so filled with life
For the wounds of my heart you are a crutch
No evil could hurt you, who’d be my wife
And wherever you go there is no pain
You’re sweet, when round you nothing can be tart
You’re strong, unlike others who wax and wane
I imagine you as a work of art
Perhaps a piece by Monet or Van Gogh
You’d be portrayed by the brightest of paints
Just a true artist could help others know
They’ll see you greater than even saints
Those who could portray your greatness are few
So that’s why I write these poems for you

Love sonnet XX
We all are victims to the gods of time
We try to fight it but all waste away
Ev’rything grows older with each clock’s chime
To take all from mortal man is child’s play
Each futile moment, though the end is nigh
I suppose that as I await my end
As I wait for the falling of the sky
That I may wait with you; my loving friend
As through the hour glass the grains of sand
Fall and signal the coming end of earth
I long to have the will to take your hand
And seize the friendship I’ve longed for since birth
So I will stand through each withering squall
And I shall wait for you until the stars fall

Who has too much free time? I do! The next two are not love sonnets, they're much more amusing.

Study Hall
In this silent chamber I watch the clock
I am overwhelmed by this dumb quiet
I am maddened by the tick-tock, tick-tock
How I wish for an exciting riot
The boredom taunts me with each pencil scratch
I’m filled with loathing by each sniffling nose
The fun I could start with a single match…
Each painful second since my watch froze
Each second passes like a long decade
There is no way to tell how much time is left
What I’d give to hit something with a spade
I can only stare at that weird kid’s cleft
But one good thing comes from this boring plight
These stupid poems I have time to write

Antisocial
I like to torture cute woodland creatures
I love to hurt and maim them out of spite
I point and laugh at their mangled features
It’s fun to set their small corpses alight
There are those who’d be glad to call me sick
They call my antisocial acts crazy
I hold the gun and then I point and click
The line twixt right and wrong is too hazy
Oh yes, I frolic and I prance with glee
I maniacally rampage through fields
On a delightful killing spree
And smile at what my sadism yields
But now I can no longer receive calls
Now they keep me between padded walls

Here's a bonus non-sonnet poem.

I’ll swear you have my love in dark or light
It’s yours in shining day and shadowed night
You have no shadow, you are gold and bright
Your beacon cannot evade my true sight
To be loved by you is a sacred rite
You bring calmness to those who wish to fight
Such peace and love is the root of your might
Your should is free and flies like a kite
A chat with you can weather any plight
The dif’rence twixt you and a god is slight
Your heart gives even the most weighted flight
You’re sweet and loving, but never trite
You’re dressed in an angel’s shroud of pure white
Such love is why your hand I do requite
Your shine makes the darkest draw back in fright
I look to you up on heavenly height
I dream I’d be you shining armored knight
To follow you is always what is right
Your soul untainted without thoughts of spite
You’ll be my comfort when I feel death’s bite

Love Sonnet XVI
Not ever would I look straight at the sun
But still, I’d dare to gaze upon your face
On a bright summer’s through fields I run
When I see you my heart exceeds that pace
Your face always shines with a vibrant hue
Both your mind and your person are so bright
When compared to you my talents are few
My love, you radiate a brilliant light
I bask in the glow of your shining rays
And from you a deluge of sunshine shoots
The dark of my life your radiance slays
You are heralded by a thousand flutes
So as I watch the rain of your praise fall
It falls on us and you enlighten all

Love Sonnet XVII
I shall love you, and after I expire
I shall watch you from heaven in the sky
Not even death can quench my loving fire
The bonds of life to me do not apply
My love transcends the limits of my life
I may not be able to hold your hand
You’re as close to me as a man and wife
My love cannot be stopped by things unplanned
No one can intervene, not even fate
My love is stronger than the hand of death
I hope that when you think of me as late
That you shall weep and mourn my loss of breath
I will wait for you til’ the day you’ve died
I’ll be without you on the other side

Love Sonnet XIV
I saw you and my world was born anew
indeed, forever I shall wonder why
When has there been a pair such as us two?
us walking on the beach just you and I
alas, I'm a lone ship that's lost at sea
In storms I'm tossed and thrown about by waves
Stuck in this hell til I am at last free
below wreckage of those sent to their graves
I'm so confused, for me there is no port
I watched as all my comforts washed away
There is no slavation of any sort
there's only you from ev'ry night to day
so then when my ship shall begin to sink
I shall be gladdened as of you I think

Love Sonnet XV
I hope maybe one day I shall sit and stare
into your cheerful and so friendly eyes
the two of us, we would make such a pair
so much greaer than others could surmise
you comprise the other half to my whole
yet still, to me, you are a distant star
in a night sky that is as black as coal
to me you are so near and yet so far
a diamond lost in the vastness of night
you are unreachable through space or time
but even so, I still would risk the plight
for you, olympus I would climb
you are a glow in the darkest abyss
when I reach you nothing shall be amiss

This next one was actually the first sonnet i wrote, but i never got around to posting it.

Sonnet I
Alone am I, By myself in the dark
Does anyone care for what lies beneath
They don't see the scars where there is no mark
The tears in my eyes, withheld in their sheath
I sleep in sadness, slumber in sorrow
I can see the world as a loveless plane
I stand alone, and fear for the morrow
As I lament, no one can sense my pain
Often I struggle, with the burdens of life
Haunted by my demons, I am alone
I must weather the cold tormenting strife
A hole is in my heart, still on my own
I fall in a whirlpool of confusion
I now know happiness is delusion

Sonnet II
None can harm me because my heart is stone
for me there is no pain, I feel no hurt
although I hold back these tears never shown
If struck in defense I will not assert
They strike at me and try to bring me down
Are there none who will choose to show me love?
I know I am not great and wear no crown
In grief I shout to the heavens above
I dare not let them get too close to me
They mocked my life but all I did was sigh
I'm trapped in a prison and am not free
There's no solace I cannot even cry
I looked for love, I never should have tried
They care most for you after you have died

Love Sonnet XIII
I'd give my life for another's embrace
there is no sadness like that which I feel
They do not see the thoughts beyond my face
The mental scars that mat not ever heal
The ache could go away if I felt loved
I wish I could tell you how sad I am
but none dare touch me with a hand ungloved
My love is like water behind a dam
What you don't know can still tear at my soul
My silence makes my life look dark and bleak
There's no love like mine found in book or scroll
I'd lose so much if I would dare to speak
Thoughts of you could see me through countless wars
And though you are not mine my heart's still yours

I'm in a crappy mood. I'm in one of those moods that if I could directly transfer my feelings into anyone else's mind they would break down in tears. I wish it were as simple as that. I'm always feeling left out. Does anyone have any idea how much pain I'm in? I doubt it. All I want is to know that I'm cared about. I can't feel that all the time. The old expression "home is where the heart is" is kind of true. I'm not happy at my house. I have no one to talk to unless I use the phone or computer. I'm not happy. I have no true home. I rarely get that sense of belonging anymore. People have told me that maybe the good things that happen to me happen to me for a reason. I doubt it. If there were a reason for the good things, then why all the bad things. I'm consumed by extreme apathy. I don't feel like doing anything; not doing the dishes, not watching the T.V., hell, if it weren't for the fact that I know things will always get better I wouldn't even feel like living. Not being able to really talk about it just makes it worse. I'm stuck in my own mind. I want to escape, but there's no way for me to escape.