Wow, it's sure been a long time since I last truely posted. Let's see, vacation was pretty cool. I went to Disney World. It was the awesomest. I went to Universal and had alot of fun. We went on all the roller coasters a couple times. Steve (my brother in law) and I went on "Popeye and Bluto's Bilge-Rat Barge". We got so wet. It was kind of funny actually. That evening we watched superhero cartoons together. Sarah and Steve are so cool. They had 999 channels of TV, 32 channels of music. The next day we went to Magic Kingdom and had alot of fun. On Monday we went to Disney Quest, possibly the coolest thing in Disney World. It was basically a giant arcade with a bunch of virtual reality games. I made a roller coaster and got to ride a simulation of it, fight pirates from my own pirate ship, sword fight in a comic book, frag aliens, and play a bunch of retro arcade games. Not to mention my five straight games of skeeball. The plane rides to and from florida were fine, but kind of boring. On the way down there the guy next to me was wearing really bad cologne. Yuck. Life was pretty relaxing once I got back. I went to Scott's on Tuesday. Did stuff. Most of the days I mainly spent playing Gamecube and watching TV. I got some pictures developed, finally. Some were of my friends at Explo. Some more were of various people hugging other people. Beautiful blackmail. On Saturday my father, sister, and I went to New York and visited the Metropolitan Museum of Art. We walked through central park and there were all these funky orange gate things. Weird. The Met was cool, we saw an exhibit on medieval armor and weapons. I like armor and weapons. Today at school was boring. I was supposed to have rehearsal tonight but it got cancelled. Stupid snow... Oh well, I guess that's all.



P.S. Ask about my mood, I want to talk to someone, but i never really get the chance.

STOLEN FROM "The Dreaded Snark Returns"

memories...
if you read this,
even if i don't speak to you often,
you must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want,
it can be good or bad,
just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal.
See what people remember about you...

I don't know why, but right now I'm being devoured by general discontent. I just feel unhappy. Everything in my life should be cool right now. But it's not. I'm going to Florida tomorrow, and that will be fun. Maybe my unhappiness stems from my perpetual conflict with my father. Maybe it's how he treats me like I never do anything right and almost looks for me to make mistakes. Maybe it's his utter lack of responsibilty while he tells me I have to do things. Or maybe it's just the fact that he's a complete failure as a parent. Even thinking about the things that make me happy in life aren't cheering me up. Maybe this bout of depression is only temporary and will be gone in the morning. Thus, I retire.

I. Hate. Dancing. At rehearsal we were trying to dance and I really stink. Oh well. White guys don't dance. White NERDY guys. White nerdy guys with no social life. Let's see... Otherwise life is boring and miserable, my contentness has gone away. I'm not sure what brought it on, but whatever it was is gone. Now I have school tomorrow and I don't want to go. Valentine's day stunk as usual. The stage managers were really cool and got every one valentines. I got my first valentine in four years. That's pathetic. Now I'm searching for a reason for why I'm so romanticly abominable. Oh well, I can dream. I can still grin when I'm around the few girls I have any affection for. None of you know any of their names. It's a secret. A secret that if you ask about I'll answer. Yes, this is just a cry for attention to start conversations with people, despite the absolute truth in these statements.

I adopted a cute lil' ninja fetusfrom Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

Hmmm... Lots of stuff has changed in the past week. Firstly I finally got that Latin level change I wanted so badly. w00t! Latin Level 1 really isn't that bad. I miss my old chemistry class, they were cool. I got an Ebola virus in the mail from "giantmicrobes.com". Check it out, it's probably one of the most amusing concepts I've ever seen. On Friday we held our youth group speghetti dinner and service. It was really fun and we made a pretty good profit. The sermon Shainess and I wrote was pretty good and the service in general was pretty successful, except for the crappy closing hymn. On Saturday I went to a debate with the debate club, it was awesome. Except for the whole part about us losing the only one i knew we had in the bag. There was no way we should've lost that. I think the judge just thought the other team was nicer. Nicer. Not better. Stupid ****ing ******* ****heads. Oh well, I'll live.

Me: Liberty liberty libery! Freedom freedom freedom! Terror! *makes funky hand motion*
Sara: You're done now.
Me: But-
Sara: Done.

I adopted a cute lil' ninja fetusfrom Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

You know what's weird? Right now I'm content. Me. Content. I usually have underlying stressful backrgound stimuli to keep my happiness in check. Right now there's nothing wrong with my life. Everything's going my way. "Much Ado About Nothing is going gret. I even have a secret crush that nobody knows about. (If any one of you think you know, you're wrong. If you must know, ask me.) Unfortunately I have this gut feeling that it's too good to last. I just am not used to being happy. It's a paranoid feeling that maybe one of my friends will get hit by a truck or something. Maybe diagnosed with some illness, or have a nervous breakdown, or move to Djibouti. I don't want to sound like a killjoy, but I feel like something's wrong.

I've recently had a revelation. I hate Valentine's day. Never in the past have I felt particularly loved, and this year will probably not be any different. It's not like I've ever been good to talking to people I like, and I probably never will be. Valentine's day will come and go. Every couple will be very happy and affectionate, whilst I will just get to sit by and watch. Bleh. Maybe I sound like Scrooge, but I atleast feel happy for the people who have something to celebrate. I just feel more self-pity.

These past couple of days have been amusing. The American Mathematic Competition (AMC) was pretty fun. I think I did really well, I probably got over 100, mebbe even 110. In study hall I could've sworn these two girls were chatting with the teacher casually about who they've had sex with. I hate shallow nymphomaniacs who don't know the meaning of love, only lust. Matt and Mimi yelled to me in the hall that I had to be at rehearsal yesterday for fitting. It was kind of annoying and surprising seeing as I also had the peer education interview that day at 4:30. I got lost at first trying to findout where it was, but I found it. (I'm smart like that :P) It was cool, they asked us a bunch of questions and I gave the most honest/well phrased answers I could think of. I found out that rehearsal is a lot of fun. Mrs. Nap had to re-introduce me to the cast because i havent been there so far. Apparently people are dropping like flies though. My monologue has been reduced to shreds. Poor me. :( Today was cool, nothing much happened all day until after school. Debate club was cool, but we found out we're a little short on chaperones. Chess club was fun. I finally go t my rematch with Adam. After telling him I'd destroy him for 2 months he beat me. I saw it coming. It was fun though. My dad wasnt picking us up so i was getting really worried until someone from the synagogue came at like 4:15. In confirmation we talked alot and it was fun.

Zach: Sara, you're like the laziest person in the world.

Sara: Am not! I would so point my finger at you if I didn't have to lift my arm.

Zach: Hehehe... You're so lazy.

Sara:*smacks zach*